Have you ever had that time, when you feel so down and sad, and all weighed down, but you have no idea why exactly? I'm having that feeling today; been having that feeling for some time really. It doesn't make sense up in your head, because things are going well (or at least they seem to be); you've been blessed and was given something you've been praying for for the longest time; you're surrounded by awesome friends who you became closer with and are genuinely fun to be with; law school is, well excruciatingly challenging as always, but at least you still have that to motivate you.
Then why the fuck am I feeling this way?
Maybe I'm missing someone.. or maybe I'm missing several someones (HAHA).. maybe this god-forsaken typhoon really affected me.. maybe negativity reflected by A LOT of people, evidenced by their posts irate me too much.. or maybe I'm just making an excuse to be melodramatic.. or maybe I'm just not as happy with myself as I should be. People say being happy is a choice. But sometimes circumstances won't even let you have that choice.
You know what sucks more? I'm sure I won't even know the answer to this question. This feeling, its one of those that'll wear you down, go away, and then come back. It'll recur.
Perspective, perspective. Oh I don't even have the will for that.
